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Sorry, but let me tell you a story about a girl. A girl who i used to be close with, but the last time that we talked was so awkward. It wasn't her fault, neither was mine. She was the girl that i believed only exist in dreams, but SHE was real. We could be happy together but one day, we stopped talking. days to months.. you know the scenario.. Then she played this online RPG game, then loved the game. She then became friends with the people she played with; adding them on her facebook and multiply site. She became close with them and treated them as her friends.. funny as it may seem, she is now this gamer chick that those gamer guys are chasing. Nothing wrong with that, but i don't know.. I just felt that she chose those "virtual" friends that she has over us. It hurts me sometimes, people change.. and I change.. Now, she fell in love with this guy she met over the game and they lived happily ever after. IDK..

since then.. the last time we have seen each other was about 2 years and 8 months ago. wow.. FAIL!!

don't worry.. i've already moved on, noon pa.. di ko nga lang nalaman kung nagkags2 din siya sa akin noon.. di ko na inalam..

Ingay ng Mundo Pakinggan Mo

madalas ang mga manunulat ginaganahan kapag
heatbroken, emo, suicidal, sobrang saya, inlove, at kung anu
anu pang extremes na pakiramdam ang nararamdaman.

gusto kong maiba naman ang ambiance ng blogs, para lang
may bago sa pandinig, hindi tungkol sa puso kundi tungkol sa
paligid na ginagalawan ng bawat tao..

nakalipas ang halos tatlong linggo na hindi ako nakarasan ng
byahe ng bus patungo sa malalayong lugar at ngayon na lang
ulit napagmasdan at napakinggan ang ingay ng mundo,
marahil magtataka ang makakabasa nito, napagmamasdan
nga ba ang ingay ng mundo, subukan at alamin

anu ang itsura ng maiingay na busina sa kalsada ang mga
nagmumurahang tinero at tindera sa bangketa, ang mga
taong tumatawad upang makabili ng mas mura, ang mga
taong karipas ang takbo dahil muntik ng masagasaan, mga
sasakyang naguunahan makakuha ng pasehero at mga
sasakyang tumitigil sa quiapo para magpuno.

kung iisipin nakakaasar, nakakatawa, at nakakabaliw ang
paulit-ulit na scenario sa lansangan ay ganito. wala na bang
mas gugulo pa sa maynila?

wala na bang mas iingay pa sa mundo na pakikinggan mo?

-monmon

smile like you mean it

There are somethings that guys like me can't understand.. she said she doesn't like guys who smoke, then later on she will have a crush on this guy who smokes. i don't understand man.. I don't smoke, and i believe i am better than that dude.. better in everything. this is crap.. I have been living a happy life since I have found some answers, and some soul searching and stuff.. I realized to myself that she has the right to talk to others and she IS NOT MINE. I want to move on, but why? there is no reason to move on. besides, if I want to move on, it would be hard. I just don't easily do that.. i can't seem to find someone better than her.. for me she is the one. I have accepted the good and the bad in her. Cause no one is perfect, either am I. It's just a matter of acceptance and no regrets in the future. I don't want to hear that.. the line that says: "sana si ganyan or ganyan nalang naging asawa ko, siguro magiging mas masaya pa buhay ko ngayon." that's what my mom used to say.. like everyday! hey mom, how about focusing on what is here and done? BS. no, i'm not fine.. i want my friend.. im sad, and no one knows about it except for whoever is reading this blog, but i will already be fine once this is read so, i'm ok.

Human Nature

puta.. bakit ako nagkakaganito.. gs2 ko na nga uli ata siya at ako'y nagseselos? parang eh.. di ko alam kung anu masasabi ko sa mga bagay. ok, alam mo kenneth nagcomment lang siya sa guy, wala lang iyon. ok? pero wala lng.. it's a free world. i want her, and you know why i can tell i want her? seriously, I JUST FELT IT.. damn this.. why do people have emotions and stuff.. it isn't God that wants us apart, it was just a matter of she spoke to him, and he spoke to her. This is just a test. people talking.. and yeah.. i don't know. weird eh? If God wants us apart then there would be NO HUMAN INTERFERENCE.

FTW!! for the win

This is what I feel, and let me just share a lil bit of this feeling.

Today, I feel better, now that I have friends, I feel that I have been a better person now, and having the feeling that I have again, the feeling deep inside of me.. I just can't seem to resist your gravitational pull. I pull away but you pull me back again. I don't know the reason why I seem to like you but, I also can't seem to figure out what NOT to like about you. I feel so.. happy. happy that we talk again, well.. getting close to it. but I'm not saying that I will make a move AGAIN. not now, maybe when both of us are ready, and not just a simple blood rush through the head. I will still see if things would work out.. I'm not saying that i love you, but I simply missed being friends with you. If things are, it doesn't mean that it's meant to be.

Destiny comes along, and it is up to us to make the decision whether we stick with it, or go with something else.

i miss you.. 999 days

para akong retarded, mula nung.. hmmm bsta, wala sa sarili, at laha ng gusto ay saya. nahihirapan akong bigla magtype sa keyboard haha! so, hindi ako sanay makipagusap ngayon? hehe B.S. naman tong net na ito dahil kanina pa ako nadidisconnect. pasensya na kung mali mali spelling ko, pero eto yun sa kalalaro ko nababaliw na ata ako, di ko nararamdaman ung oras na lumilipas, ang mga panahon na sana may kausap ako sa ym nalang, pero ewan.. kaysa makipaglaro sa mga hindi ko kilala naman. haha! well, well..

natawa ako bigla.. dahil sa aking pangiistalk, naalala ko ang mga panahon na.. na.. alam mo un, wala pa akong alam sa labas na mundo, ang alam ko lang merong siya at ako, at ang mga kaibigan ko.. tapos nun naalala ko na kami lang magkasama.. 3 years ago, di ko nga maalala ang mga detalye sa mga nakakakilig na moments namin. nakalimutan ko na nga kung lang beses kami nagkasama pero ayun, may isa akong naalala na.. bigla isang araw magkasama kami sinabi niya sa akin na ui, may sasabihin ako, naiinis ako. sabi ko sa akin? sabi niya bakit naman? sabi ko sino? sabi niya si toot at ayun.. natuwa ako nun dahil pinagkatiwalaan niya ako noon kahit hindi naman talaga kami close. nafeel ko tuloy nun, ui.. parang close na kami ng konti? ayun.. hindi naman kasi kami magkaklase, at nagkakilala lang kami nung inadd ko siya sa ym at friendster noon.. haha! baliw! magaral ka na nga kenneth, PHYSIO PA BUKAS BOY =)) basta..

-k-engkoy